Coping With Cervical Dysplasia

I’m 23 years old and was diagnosed with HPV 2 years ago. I’ve only ever been with one guy and we’re getting married 6-19-2010. Ever since the diagnosis my paps have been coming back abnormal. I would go through a colposcopy and they would say it’s mild and not to worry about it. This past August they did another colposcopy and it came back severe dysplasia. I had a leep procedure done this past October and they assured me they got it all -that the surrounding tissue was normal.

Well just yesterday I got the call that my pap picked up mild dysplasia again and they scheduled me for another colposcopy. I’m scared that this will keep happening. I’ve wanted to be a mother all my life- I’m a teacher and have dedicated my life so far to being with children. I’m scared that 1- I will not be able to carry a child due to my weekend cervix. 2- I get pregnant and they can’t do anything while I’m pregnant so by the time I have the baby I’ll have cervical cancer. Or 3- I get cervical cancer and lose the chance to have a child at all while fighting for my life.

I sunk into a depression when this all started happening…I feel stronger this time around. I’m determined to try everything. I’m getting a second opinion, trying to eat the right things (Folic Acids and IC3), excersizing, and taking Vitamin supplements. I want to fight this. I’m a strong Christian but I’ve found this testing my faith. My fiance and I want to start trying to have a child as soon as we get married….but I’m scared. Help.