Coping With Cervical Dysplasia

I am 26 years-old and diagnosed with mild dysplasia.

I am scared, and I could never tell my family members. Since, it is caused by HPV, and sex before marriage, I know for a fact that my parents would not react kindly. They would shame me and (knowing my mother) she would call up every relative and friend and tell them about my HPV And, I am not sure I would want to tell my the man I have been dating for the past 5 months either.
So, I must bear this one alone……

I never slept around. I had always been in a serious relationship with someone I had thought had good morals and values. I was always taught to wait until marriage, but started to question that value In college. Apparently, I had a very sheltered upbringing and had not paid attention in health class.

Most of all, I feel really, really dirty, scared, ashamed and guilty….

I am a grad student with limited health insurance. I only recently had my first PAP smear ever since my mom told me you did not need one if you were not sexually active!

The PAP smear ended up being over $100 and then I needed a colposcopy which I was told would be $250 plus lab fees. This was a lot for me, but I knew it needed to be done. Then it turned out the lab fee was and additional $628. So, I am in a great deal of financial difficulty too.

I am supposed to have another PAP smear is 6 months. But, will I be told that I need to have another $1000 colposcopy if the test results are positive again?

On the positive side,my condition is in a very early stage and could be treated so that I probably will not die from it.

But, I am absolutely horrified!!! Does this HPV condition usually go away?? Am I at a severe risk for never being able to have children?????

I am in a relationship that is starting to get more serious. And, I have found out that I have something that he definitely did not give me. ( I was diagnosed in the beginning of our relationship and we have not had sex.)

I want kids someday and I know he does too. The thought of not being able to have children is heartbreaking and I know it would be heartbreaking for him. I am afraid if I told him that (especially if he does not understand HPV), he might hear STD get scared and it would stunt the relationship from progressing. If I were in his shoes, it would be a big turn off to me…quite some baggage. Yet, I do not know if it would be right to wait until were engaged or married, and then disclose this awful truth to him.

If anyone has any advice, please let me know.
Thanks!