Living with Teen Pregnancy

I was… no… I am one of those girls, you would never expect to get pregnant. It wasnt as if I was innocent, or that I wasnt interested in sex, I just never felt the need. I work even at sixteen as much as most people at Papa Johns work at 20 somthing. Somtimes, I will stay until four in the morning.

And then I got my heart broken, and I felt so numb that I just didnt care. I didnt care about anything. That’s when a guy that had just graduated from my school started talking to me. I didnt think anything of it of course… Frankly I didnt care one way or the other. But then, he made me think I wanted to have sex with him. And even as it was happening, I knew I didnt want it, but I couldnt say no, because he was already doing it and then it would be rape, and it wasnt rape exactly. Because I had said “what ever”. So that was giving my approval. But I didnt want it. And even then, I could feel a peice of me… I dont know how to describe it. But it was horrifying.

After it happened, I tried to forget… Tried to forget the guilty feelings that I felt, like I was cheating on the guy who broke my heart. I tried to forget what had happened in the back of his car.

And I did…

Until the first time I woke up and raced to the bathroom and made best friends with the toilet. And I knew. I took six pregnancy tests. 4 positive 3 negative. And I had never been more scared in my life. My life was ruined! How could I do somthing so stupid! I dont have sex! Rebeka is not that type of person!!! I was depressed, I was scared… I was alone.

No girl should have to go through this when she is only sixteen, no girl. So to all you girls who think you may want to get pregnant, because you think it will be someone to love you. Know that there ARE people that love you. Dispite your feelings right then. Dont ruin the life you have. Please, Im urging of you, down on my knees, please think about your actions when you have sex. Use protection, somtimes condoms arent enough. Use birthcontrol. Please, protect yourself!

*Rebeka