well im 15. My name is summer and i am a freahmen at thomasville high. My boyfriend Neal is a senior at ragsdale and is graduating on june 5 the day i get out of school. Anyways, it was the end of november right before thanksgiving that we had sex for the first time. he lived with his dad and one day it just happened. we went over to his moms house for thanksgiving and of course we slept in the same bed but we never did anything over there. well at the end of that week i had got a pregnancy test from my friend just incase anything did happen. Well as time passed that week was over and i took the one i had, it came out positive and i thought it was just old or maybe i had a bladder infection so i made my boyfriend take one and of course it was negative. well when we thought that i was all we could do was think: there goes my life.

We both had dreams about what we wanted to do with our life, but with each other standing by. We had already planned on being together since we had no problems and we loved each other very much. So that sunday he took me home cause he ended up livin with his mom cause his dad and step mother split up cause well long story. So he took me home to thomasville while he stayed in greensboro. Throughout the week we planned on how to tell our parents that i was pregnant. No one would ever think that me and my boyfriend did that, i mean we never did before and we were both virgins saving it for when we got married. When we first started going out we had never even kissed anyone, so that told us everything as we opened up to each other we talked about the past and people that we had been with. we were both virgins. Anyways we talked and planned the whoe conversation, well that weekend i went over to his house and we got his friend to take us to wal mart to get another one brand new. I thought that it was going to be negative because well we used a condom but it was leaking when he took it out and i was already on birth control to regulate my period so i thought there was no way. Anywasy we got first response pregnancy test. I took both of them and they were negative so i didnt think i was until…..

One day i was at home with my mom and everything and she had found birth control in my purse so she found out we had sex, so then my stomach was hurting really bad i mean pain like ive never felt before. She demanded a pregnancy test so we went to wal mart and got a different kind we got ept……. i took it and it was positive. I started crying and crying about how was i gonna tell his parents and how i was even going to tell him. so i called him and i was like hunny im pregnant and he said you are and i was like yea my mom bought one and it was positive so he was like well i already told my mom that there was a chance and all this stuff. The weekend came and oh my gosh i couldnt wait my family was being so mean at first but when my mom figured i cried enough she pulled me to the side and said ill always be here for you. at that point i was a little more happy with what was going on. I had support and everything. my mom wanted to talk to neals mom and i was so dredding that talk i knew that they were gonna start arguing and they did. so we went out and headed to neals dads house and i was terrified, he wanted me to go to the hospital to give me a blood pregnancy test just to be absolutly sure. they said that they didnt do that. i told my mom what happened and said some things that i shouldnt have just because i was mad. I felt awful. well it came down to the decision of me moving in with my boyfriend when of course that didnt go well with my mom but yea.

neal couldnt move in with me because he hated my sister brandi. but thats a long story tooooooo. so that week passed and everything and i talked to neal about me being pregnant and moving in with him would kill my mom but i had to do what was best for my baby. I still didnt know if i should i mean im not ready to leave my mom but look at what i did. Im not moved in now im still tryna figure this out. well when his mom went over there and was talking about me moving in they argued and tears came. after they left i went to go talk to my mom and it was krazee she said that she would never forgive me for this and at that point i didnt even figure my mom loved me she wouldnt even look at me or tell me that she loved me. it was awful. ive had many times in my pregnancy when i wish that it never happened that my life was like it was before. when me and my boyfriend just used to talk about our lives and how we were gonna spend it with each other. now we talk about our dauhghter Samera Renae Holdaway.

Im stll pregnant and not even close to birth. im 19 weeks today nad am pretty good. my mom finally calmed down and realized that she couldnt be mad she was just worried about me finishing school. im going to finish i had my babys fututre in my hands and what i do now will effect the kind of future she will have, so neal is a senoir graduating and is working at a local mcdonalds. we planned that i would have the baby next school year and since he was a senoir…… anyways yea we planned the whole thing. how we werre gonna raise it and names for a while we were debatin on if it was a girl Ianna Marie or Samera Renae and if it was a boy neal berkley holdaway THE THIRD! so he didnt liek ianna long story.

Now….. the advice i would give to a girl that was sexually active, hang on to it its one thing that youll never get back. And to another teen that is pregnant dont have an abortion its not solving anything but murder. you opened you legs you take care of the baby, but in some cases it aint like that and i could understand some things like if you get raped by a relitive or a stranger but not if your out just having sex.take care of the baby after all you made it.