Living with Teen Pregnancy

i wanted to comit suicide it wasent easy welli always been really stuburn i guess its safe to say i always been the wild child i started going to partys with older ppl smokeing drinking till i passed out i went to the most getto middle school ever this is where i met my babys father he looked way older then i imagend we went out for about 5 months then i got preo when i told him he stoped calling me he even stoped going to school just to avoid me he told everyone i was a slut when he nos he was my first ok well one day i call him and leave him a mesg telling him i was gonna kill myself cuz i couldent do this alone and i got my sonogram so he comes over and i show it to him he dident even glance at them but whatever

the next day i go to this party i got drunk so bad i grabed a knife and cut my self as deep as i could i passed out in the bathroom luckly some guy that new my older sister came into the bathroom and rushed me to the er thats where my mom was called i couldent even look at her and tell her why i did what i did the docter told her i was prego and that i had been drunk she just cryed by my side all night telling me she had brought me to this country so that i may have a better life then she did and this is how i was repaying her with being dishonest to her after a while oscar my babys father came to pick me up so that we could talk so i went to his house it was kinda far from were i lived it was about 3 in da morning and he dident wanna bring me home so i went home the next day and my mom thought i ran off with him {yea right }she told me if you wanna talk to me bring his parents so i told his parents and they called me a whore and told me it wasent his kid and that i was crazy so i told them to go f*** them selfs and that when my baby was born i dident want them around that i could do it myself

i diliverd aug 22 08 to a gourges baby girl named madelyn she was 9 pounds 12 ounces c- section it was really hard at first but i got threw with my freashman year of high school now shes about to be one and his family is trynna be in her life but guess what iam strong and i raise her myself along with my wonderful mother and suopportive sisters so basicly if your gonna have sex with someone that you think your in love with then use a condom or birth control and pick some one whos not a dumass the end